"Then don't do that," she counters, calmly. "I meant no offense with the suggestion." Loki didn't specify what alcohol it was and she was too worried to think about asking. Her focus was, and still is, on Thor himself. Everything else is secondary.
Her smile falters as he talks about his trouble sleeping. This is a pain she knows far too well. To know he's suffering from dreams, too, hurts a little more than she's ready for and she has to stop to collect herself for a moment before she can speak again.
"Dreams aren't the good things most people make them out to be," she says softly. She slowly draws her hand back to her chest, holding it there for a moment before she presses it onto the table next to her other. "When I closed my world off from the Nexus, I suffered from the most terrible, wonderful dreams. Dreams of my friends' successes, my family's health and prosperity, and wishes... I didn't know I had fulfilled. It hurt to see these things, to know they could be true and I would never see it for myself. That I chose to give up the chance to protect them when no one asked me to do so." It still hurts, but she needs to continue with her story if she's going to help Thor with it.
"I barely slept for weeks until someone gave me a tea that prevented me from dreaming." A soft sigh falls from her lips as her gaze drops to her hands. "I hated taking it. I felt weak for needing it even as I enjoyed the benefits of it. Every night I forgot to drink it or told myself I didn't need it, I'd suffer from the dreams and go right back to it and feel both relieved and frustrated the next day. But, eventually... I was able to use the energy and peace of mind from not dreaming to process what I'd done, to push through what was hurting me so I could move on. I took it less as time went on until, one night, I didn't need it anymore."
Slowly, she looks back up at her friend. "Maybe that's why you started the drink. I don't know and the actual reason for it doesn't matter. Your dependency on it is hurting you. We can find something else to get you through the dreams while you work on everything else, but the alcohol has to go if you want to move on from whatever drove you to it."
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Her smile falters as he talks about his trouble sleeping. This is a pain she knows far too well. To know he's suffering from dreams, too, hurts a little more than she's ready for and she has to stop to collect herself for a moment before she can speak again.
"Dreams aren't the good things most people make them out to be," she says softly. She slowly draws her hand back to her chest, holding it there for a moment before she presses it onto the table next to her other. "When I closed my world off from the Nexus, I suffered from the most terrible, wonderful dreams. Dreams of my friends' successes, my family's health and prosperity, and wishes... I didn't know I had fulfilled. It hurt to see these things, to know they could be true and I would never see it for myself. That I chose to give up the chance to protect them when no one asked me to do so." It still hurts, but she needs to continue with her story if she's going to help Thor with it.
"I barely slept for weeks until someone gave me a tea that prevented me from dreaming." A soft sigh falls from her lips as her gaze drops to her hands. "I hated taking it. I felt weak for needing it even as I enjoyed the benefits of it. Every night I forgot to drink it or told myself I didn't need it, I'd suffer from the dreams and go right back to it and feel both relieved and frustrated the next day. But, eventually... I was able to use the energy and peace of mind from not dreaming to process what I'd done, to push through what was hurting me so I could move on. I took it less as time went on until, one night, I didn't need it anymore."
Slowly, she looks back up at her friend. "Maybe that's why you started the drink. I don't know and the actual reason for it doesn't matter. Your dependency on it is hurting you. We can find something else to get you through the dreams while you work on everything else, but the alcohol has to go if you want to move on from whatever drove you to it."