"There's also the fact that I'll speak for myself in all of this. That will probably move things along a bit." There's no family to consider or titles that will need a home in someone else when she becomes his wife. It's only her and what little she has, even if that "little" includes a sizeable amount of money she has no plans for but to leave to Asvera if she doesn't use it here throughout her life. Maybe she can offer that for this kind of negotiation? If there even is to be one.
She huffs a small laugh as a thought occurs to her. If needs be, she'd be paying her own dowry. What a strange place her life has led her if she's to do something like that for herself.
But she doesn't speak her small realization aloud, focusing instead on his words. This is another one of her fears, though she's kept it locked further away from her heart in those few moments she allowed herself to think of children with Thor before today. It's harder to swallow than knowing the man she loves will live on long after she passes.
"I know. I've seen the children born to mixed parentage here, and I know their aging is slowed like all of Loki's children." Children who will be children long after she can't run after them or carry them any longer. Children she'll have to teach what she knows while they're still too young, if she has any hope of passing along what knowledge she has that should be retained. It hurts to know this, but acknowledging it is important.
A soft, thoughtful frown settles on her lips. "It will hurt to know I can't be there for them as they grow, but I don't want to hold myself back from trying. If we marry, I want to try. I'll... need your support, but I want to try this with you." A beat as she grips his hands gently. "But only if you'll be all right carrying on for them without me." It will be just as painful for him, if not more so, to live without her at his side, and she doesn't want to subject him to being father to their children alone for centuries if he's uncertain about taking that responsibility on.
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She huffs a small laugh as a thought occurs to her. If needs be, she'd be paying her own dowry. What a strange place her life has led her if she's to do something like that for herself.
But she doesn't speak her small realization aloud, focusing instead on his words. This is another one of her fears, though she's kept it locked further away from her heart in those few moments she allowed herself to think of children with Thor before today. It's harder to swallow than knowing the man she loves will live on long after she passes.
"I know. I've seen the children born to mixed parentage here, and I know their aging is slowed like all of Loki's children." Children who will be children long after she can't run after them or carry them any longer. Children she'll have to teach what she knows while they're still too young, if she has any hope of passing along what knowledge she has that should be retained. It hurts to know this, but acknowledging it is important.
A soft, thoughtful frown settles on her lips. "It will hurt to know I can't be there for them as they grow, but I don't want to hold myself back from trying. If we marry, I want to try. I'll... need your support, but I want to try this with you." A beat as she grips his hands gently. "But only if you'll be all right carrying on for them without me." It will be just as painful for him, if not more so, to live without her at his side, and she doesn't want to subject him to being father to their children alone for centuries if he's uncertain about taking that responsibility on.