Jane's explanation is clear enough that Amelia doesn't feel the need for any clarification. "It's similar to that, yes. The Nexus is connected to so many worlds and realities. Some people can forever go back and forth, others get stuck in one place or another. There are some ways around the lack of a physical portal, but it doesn't always work, for any number of reasons." Most being nothing like hers where she chose this, but that's... not something to share now. Maybe some other day, when they know each other better. Her heart still aches too much to offer something like that freely.
Her gaze tracks over to Jane when the woman asks her question, expression curious. It's an intimate sort of question, but she supposes she shouldn't be surprised by it. They share love for the same man, even if it's very different for the both of them now. Of course she would want to know Amelia's thoughts about what happens eventually when the rogue's professed to Asvera being where she's settled.
"Bother isn't the right word, I think. I'm sad, but not upset. I had time to think about it before I spoke to Thor of my feelings, and..." She huffs a soft, self-deprecating laugh. "On my world, I never thought I would live past forty, maybe fifty if I was lucky. I had a plan for my life: to make my family noble to improve their lives. I thought it would take decades, rather than the single one it did, and that I'd spend the entirety of it alone. If I had time left at the end of my life, I'd spend it with my siblings and their children around running my family's business. It was going to be good for them, and that's what I wanted more than anything.
"Circumstances changed all that, to the point that I was listless even before the Nexus. Now, the end of my life seems a far off dream, one I can't imagine with any clarity. What I do know is that I will cherish every moment of it, and having someone I love at my side will give it more meaning than any singular goal I could ever make for myself would."
She falls silent for a moment, hesitating before she adds a last thought. "I want my life to mean something to those around me when I die. The fact that all I've done will live on in the living memories of those I love here is a greater gift than anything else that could ever be dreamed."
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Her gaze tracks over to Jane when the woman asks her question, expression curious. It's an intimate sort of question, but she supposes she shouldn't be surprised by it. They share love for the same man, even if it's very different for the both of them now. Of course she would want to know Amelia's thoughts about what happens eventually when the rogue's professed to Asvera being where she's settled.
"Bother isn't the right word, I think. I'm sad, but not upset. I had time to think about it before I spoke to Thor of my feelings, and..." She huffs a soft, self-deprecating laugh. "On my world, I never thought I would live past forty, maybe fifty if I was lucky. I had a plan for my life: to make my family noble to improve their lives. I thought it would take decades, rather than the single one it did, and that I'd spend the entirety of it alone. If I had time left at the end of my life, I'd spend it with my siblings and their children around running my family's business. It was going to be good for them, and that's what I wanted more than anything.
"Circumstances changed all that, to the point that I was listless even before the Nexus. Now, the end of my life seems a far off dream, one I can't imagine with any clarity. What I do know is that I will cherish every moment of it, and having someone I love at my side will give it more meaning than any singular goal I could ever make for myself would."
She falls silent for a moment, hesitating before she adds a last thought. "I want my life to mean something to those around me when I die. The fact that all I've done will live on in the living memories of those I love here is a greater gift than anything else that could ever be dreamed."